caged

 i feel like an animal in captivity

governed by handlers to follow a strict schedule

and destined to pace endlessly

back and forth

across my small enclosure

stuck in a time loop

living the same day over and over

except the walls close in by millimeters each day

and i forgot the code to locked door eons ago

contained

like a video game character who hasn't unlocked the full map

and like a fish that jumps to certain death

just to escape its poisoned environment

i fantasize about sticking a fork in an electrical outlet

in hopes of a hard reset

i want to consume everything

that makes me feel anything at all

all the good and bad alike

like a black hole in the center of our universe

i want to consume you most of all

but your gravity is immense

and your light shines so bright

that it would be a pity to destroy

and make you a consequence of my insanity

but maybe

i could have you for a while

and we could dance through the dark

and the silence

and the nothingness

together

and after years and years and years

i could set you free as something

even better than both of us ever were