i'd love to leave you all behind
but i care too much to hurt you

i'll disappear for a while
but i'll come back, someday.
maybe not for weeks or months
maybe after years

i feel fast asleep
but my eyes betray me, blinking rapidly
none of you could ever comprehend this feeling.
i hope you never have to.
deflate your head, because it's not all because of you.

it costs 50 cents to self destruct
i've got thousands in the bank
it's just a matter of a countdown.
the path in front of me is all down hill;
i'll do nothing to stop this journey.

none of this is worth it
not even writing this-