who (k)new?

i'm not that...
crazy. i'm just a little...
angry. please don't be
afraid, i'm just reacting
to chemicals and science
the way humans should
react. introduce myself to
this catalyst, i'll shake her hand
but never get friendly.
but here's reality, dear enemy
you shelter her from
who you were, and who you still
are. it's: nervous and
embarrassed, what you feel
and maybe you lie
and wonder why
but you just need to
l e t g o.

i am fire burning outrageously
and i can be a little
self absorbed
especially when there are creatures
with interest in me.
i am perfectly imperfect
and that's so cliche but true
and myself, i adore imperfections and
flaws to a hurtful degree.

if everything could go back in time,
i wouldn't mind
but it's not like i don't love my life
now,
it's just i don't like
change.

and
no matter how many new friends
i acquire
my love grows, thickens and
multiplies to a point where
i love each individual equally,
fully
even after the "first date".
if i didn't have discretion i would
tell them all how much i was
in love.

i think i am ok.