destroy

in too deep
mistakes have been made

you're getting that feeling again
to light up your insides
burn yourself,
skin yourself

because you feel so fucking
uncomfortable in your own
body

today
thoughts pounding your head
like atoms
excited.
and a concentration
making your vision
multiply, divide, tunnel
making just your feet
and the path they were taking
visible

and yet
you don't remember
being any more tired.