"when i was born i was one solid color"

Why do you try?
it always ends in failure
in disappointment
and regret
she's done trying now, too.
and this is the end
and it will always be the end.

you now think of her as dead
and it would work if you never saw
her pale face
and glaring hair
pass you all the time.
her contrasting face is now one solid color
visually sick.
you avert your eyes every time.